1 year, 4 months, 1 day
So it’s been a while. Sorry about that.
If you’ve been reading my wife’s blog, then you’re probably up to speed on most things. If you haven’t, then SHAME ON YOU. She’s amazing and hilarious, so stop patting me on the back for writing again and go there now.
What have you missed in 1 year, 4 months, and 1 day? Not much. And everything.
RR is 5 and almost 1/2. She draws a lot – her amazon.com wishlist has 100 packages of Crayola markers on it, and that’s all.
I’m playing music again. And performing it, even. To the public. I’m recording a full-length album with some amazing local musicians. Starting this past March or so, I’ve been staying out at least two nights a week until 11pm, playing music and making friends. Rewarding AND exhausting and amazing and mostly exhausting.
My father-in-law has terminal brain cancer.
I’ve gained some weight. The part I’m the least happy about is the fact that I have to buy some new clothes. I’m not all that unhappy about my appearance, just unhappy to spend money on pants. PANTS! #beer #cancer #stress
I cut my hair short last August.
I got promoted at work, which means I work a LOT (and blog a lot LESS) and one day they will maybe pay me more for doing it, too!
Our animals are getting OLD! Two cats, aged 14 and 12. Moses the dog is turning 9 in March and has had two major surgeries since we’ve last talked: an ACL replacement and some cancer removed from his…. uhh, butt.
Everything and nothing. I’m not only back on anti-depressants, but on a higher dose than when my mom died. *sad trombone*
I’m coping with the endless waves of potential change and grief and coming to terms that this is just fucking life. Right? It’s just life. Love, loss, repeat. Bob (he says “hi!”) explains about the numb feet forward walking. Just keep moving.
I read an article last night about a cyclist who received some advice once about “not needing to ride fast, just needing to not stop” in regards to long-distance cycling. I had my first suicidal thought a few months ago, told my wife, got some help, and this could be my new mantra. This (life) is not a race, in which I am eager to get to the finish line (death).
I’m making time for friends. Learning how to stay out late on a weeknight (and live to work efficiently the next day!). Singing, writing, sharing every chance I get. Saying “thank you” and “I’m sorry.” Gazing at my wife. Laughing with RR. Listening and watching. Being so grateful… for said wife, RR, friends.
I’m here, with my numb feet. Shuffle shuffle. Sorry for the radio silence. I’ll include y’all from here on out – promise.